This torchlight got me so freaked out. You know where i got it from? From my supervisor because of HFMD. Is this a good thing for me or is it the worst nightmare? Last week, i went to ttsh cause i was down with high fever. I had no choice
but to rush myself to ttsh. Followed by another 2 appointments the following week. One at poly and another was at the hospital but i did not go for both
the appointments. Simply because i couldn't be bothered (frankly speaking) and i couldn't find the right time. I thought my tonsilitis was okay. Not until today that i found out it
was swollen real bad. The opening is narrow. I ever heard from the doctor that if my tonsilitis grows big and it closes , i will not be able to breathe. Eventhough my memory isn't as clear, but i still remember the doctor said something like that. My tonsilitis used to be flat surfaced and round but now, it has worsen. It has like more layers of meat and it's not round and no more flat surfaced. I've read and saw pictures on the net about acute tonsilitis and the only thing that is holding me back now is the after effect that i'm going
to face. Now i'm biting my fingernails. I wonder how it would be like to feel the pain,not eating properly for a few days and staying in the ward. I am still considering now whether to call up
and make an appointment with the throat specialist. My bf is leaving for taiwan soon and i know i need him the most (eventhough he's getting on my nerves right now because he thought operating my tonsilitis is a big joke) but at the same time, i'm afraid if this thing is going to get serious and by the time, it will be too late. I try to tell myself firmly but now i feel like drowning. I hate this feeling. I hate to look down on myself. Maybe i just need some words of motivation, appreciation etcetera etcetera.

hil.