I just came back home from accompanying nut early this morning..i wanna thank you for saving my tears..

I couldn't quite wrap my mind around what he's done to me. It was just so calculated.
I didn't get much sleep yesterday. I feel that something isn't right and i will think of him.
I feel antipathy waking up in the middle of the night having to call his name and having this feeling that i want to call him to say that i miss him. But i tried not to cos i'm never gonna be nice. I will just break down and pray to Allah so that i can sleep peacefully again. I just trust him too much.

When the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you can't replace. When you love someone, but it goes to waste. Could it be worse?

But this is not the end of the world. Everything happens for a reason. Why would i waste my time thinking of him, crying for him to return back to me when he is out there enjoying his time with his new replacement? I certainly am concerned with what he is facing now. I know he has some problems to settle. But if i have that opportunity, i will help him. But it's because i don't have anything with me now. We can be friends but it will take time for me to ever trust you again and because of you...

Whoops i did promise myself not to talk about something remotely personal in here..i think i'll stop now.

I'm meeting my beautiful mum later at novena to have fun with the ang mohs haha!

Goodbye lovelies i will miss you!